1/7
读fanfic有感，原来，我，还是喜欢清水！
不过詹美就是克制之美吧。
1/5
好像我今年寒假还没有熬过通宵……so here we are
我总算知道为什么每次我想补GoT都补不下去，因为我看到詹美那里我就停住了…停住了…改看fanfic…半夜里看b站上詹美大概一个多小时的同框clip哭得停不下来，不是因为CP补刀了，而是心里清楚明白这对cp以后没有糖了…………没有了…………she could be nothing more than the one who rebuilds his honor. now that he’s in the white cloak and that shall be it. 本来第六季也兴趣淡淡，因为知道我cp被拆了还加了新三角，心情唯有FML可以形容。
我看fanfic里有虐一些的，大概套路是俩人死一个或者一起死，临死前告白。我在想现实肯定比这虐的多，怎么可能有告白呢，taste如我也知道那肯定low爆了…………我看不出Jaime有任何可能会活下来，Brienne多半要为荣誉牺牲了，虽然第六本还没出来但我已心如死灰
感觉我过去几天读的英文比我去年读的paper还多 这可 多么呵呵
1/3
在补GoT，看到香料之子怼龙母那一段真是爽……龙母一天到晚就是my birthright seven kingdoms，还是中国文化好
又去AO3上看fanfic，看到了一篇很好的小黄文…【我在看小黄文却告诉我妈我在work，反正都是英语哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
12/31
To the bottle in the ditch, to the scoop
in the oats, to air in the lung
let evening come
===我是梗的分割线===
他们都（被认为）是Kingslayer
she is everything he wants to be
===我是扫文分割线===
詹美，这篇乍一看超级粗暴简直吓人，但最后三段实在是我的最爱……詹美能这样那根本都算HE了好吗……
She and Jaime never touched while he lived. Brienne never dared to touch him (he never dared to ask, to demand, for all his years of teasing, she thinks sadly, angrily), yet it was only with his imagined touch, his remembered smile and voice in her ear that she got through her first bedding and every time Hyle has visited her since. Brienne cannot bear the thought of all those times (all that shame and waste) and no child to show for it in the end.
Brienne’s child will learn the true tale of Ser Jaime Lannister, not the legend of the Kingslayer. Even if that tale has no place anywhere else in the Dragon Queen’s realm, and even here on the Sapphire Isle the truth must be told in whispers and snatches, true words smuggled in the night, spoken softly in dim corners.
A small defiance, all Brienne can allow herself. Future generations of Tarths (not Hunts, never Hunts) will keep the truth of Jaime’s life alive when Brienne is dust and bones. This she swore on the Seven and on her sword (Jaime’s sword, the last thing she kept of him) on the morning of her wedding, fully aware she intended to bed down with the man who was not her husband inside her head, the only place she could. The only place which truly matters, or so she tells herself, though her heart and thighs know the lie of it. All her other oaths are broken, become void and meaningless. This one she will keep, if it breaks her.
狗珊小黄文，奇怪这是我昨天看的第一篇也是最长的一篇，也是最好的一篇……我觉得这对好歹还是有点下文可能的CP，糖也多
詹美，这篇是接着原著第五卷往下……simply beautifully written （意味着我看得懂= = 真是不看小说就不知道自己的词汇有多贫乏……）好到有点想翻译一下。
詹美，跟上一篇一样都是原著往下，结果是个BE…特别喜欢结尾，
I wish i could say goodbye to her, tell her … what?
If he had the chance to say goodbye would have wasted saying something stupid, in the end it was better this way.
詹美，中文粮！国产粮！虐。
还是原著续……发现其实最喜欢这篇了~
===脑洞===
1. after all is over… 龙母给美人开了比武招亲大会，误）Jaime, on the other hand, stripped of everything is about to leave for the Rock. He rushed to the scene after hearing the news, only to find that, among all the noble suiters, stands a golden-haired, green-eyed Lannister that is very much like himself when he was young. He was supposed to fight but not sure after seeing the scene. （虐Jamie是我的爱！
2. Brienne’s (adopted?) granddaughter travels to King’s landing and there she mets her one true love. She wants to marry a Lannister bastard (or some non-heir son), instead of a noble Targaryen prince who’s eagerly crushing on her. Her father sees the benefits of marrying the dragon prince and is forcing her to do so. She thus travels back to Tarth to see help from her grandma. She heard story on how possibly the renowned maid of Tarth could be the Kingslayer’s whore.
2. Triangle between Jace, Baela, and the Stark bastard